My journey is being pushed into double-time.
I'm going through heavy changes and revelations faster as the days reach closer to my wedding day. The friendships I used to have with people are now turning into painful experiences. There is a simple truth about life: there is a place where you bleong and don't belong. I believe God has given us the clear ability to recognize our place at certain times. For me, I realize that I no longer belong among certain people and accepted that it's not my fault.
Some people refuse to see you for you. But at the same time, do you see yourself?
If you know people that constantly bring you down...make fun of you or other people..and you don't like it--let them go. You can be "friends" with people for years, but if your whole relationship is based on them making fun of you, what excites you and find ways to stop you from growing and being built up positively then step back and see that these people HATE their lives. And they want you to hate yours but don't. Your life is so important. You are so important. What you're going to do in life is so much more meaningful than what those people think. It's not your fault they're stale, but it will be your fault if you become stale like them.
Proverbs 27:17 says, "As iron sharpens iron, so one man sharpens another."
Are your friends dull and making you dull? Go find someone to sharpen you in your journey with God. Patiently wait for this blessing, it may take some time. Who knows? Maybe they need sharpening before they meet you, likewise. Work on yourself--find out who you are and what you can offer. But you're never going to find out if you remain with people who don't want you to know your own potential in a righteous light. Remember, if you've been saved the bible says to, "Stay true to what is right for the sake of your own salvation and the salvation of those who hear you."
Much of my pain in the past has been felt by those who tell me who I am isn't good enough. My identity means a lot to me and God. I don't have a lot of time to be me, so I respect who God wants me to be and I pursue this identity with intense diligence.
At the end of the day, ask yourself, "whos life are you living?" The answer should always be yours. It will be a shame to ask, "whos life are you throwing away?" and answer yours. You have nothing to prove, just live your life. Be you, not your mom, your dad, a lie, etc...
So I pray you find who you are in Christ Jesus. Be you throughout it all. I let go of a lot of things in my life that perverted my walk with Christ...so I'm going through a change and finding out who I am now. Still, I see that this is what it takes to reach my goal so I will run towards maturity and find out who I really am and how I can leave a positive impact on God's kingdom. It's hard because I've been and lived a certain way for so long. I've been recognized as a certain identity, but I have to say goodbye to the life and people who hold me back from who I am now and embrace the new life Jesus sets before me. He's preparing my future with his blessings...lining up good people and relationships to help me and his Kingdom to grow. I need to find people who accept me for who I am now in Christ. This is me and I'm never going back because I want to live for God knowing I was me, the real me the whole time. God bless you guys I hope this helped you.
In love and peace,
-C
